shocks

these past few days have been what?? i don't know maybe SHOCKING!
i was so shocked in everything...school,friends & family.
i couldn't believed that i was not aware of what was happening around me,.
am i really that stupid? or it is really just me who doesn't care about everything.

to begin with, my friend had told me something that i don't want to share here..lol.
anyway i have nothing to do with that, but it was really shocking.

as of now, i am so afraid of what is goin' to happen in my accounting.it's still HANG!
i mean i don't know if i'm gonna pass or not HERE I GO AGAIN. i discovered that i had so many wrong answers in my final exam right after i passed it, so everything was like BUGOOSHTIGOOSH!!!because of that, i texted some of my friends and NONI responded by calling me and what was so shocking about it was that she told me that she also might fail, well it was shocking because i never thought of that.

and the most shocking revelations!!!it's about my cousin.
i realized that i was so selfish thinking that i'm the only who has a big problem but then i was wrong. All this time i thought that nothing can be worse than my problem, i mean if i fail in accounting then that's gonna be the end of my dreams.
she texted me the night before that shocking thing, i shared my problem to her and she told that my problem was nothing compare to her. i was so mad in her response i said "it was only a love problem and she too young para seryosohin yun" it's like sya ung gumagawa ng problema nya eh ako never q ginusto n mgkaproblemas s accounting noh' then it ended there.
the next morning,i went to her house and there she told me everything. she told me that her mom was already here in the Philippines...her mom was an OFW working in Qatar for almost 1 month only that's why i was shocked because her family has financial problem and it's an opportunity for her mom to work out of the country. then one of our aunts told my cousin that her my mom was having an affair with another man so my cousin didn't know what to do..my cousin told me that her younger brother told her "ate alam mo gusto q n din magaral kaso ayoko mkipagsabayan sayo",.my tears dropped.basta madami p xa cnav blahblahblah!!pero ang pinakanabigla ako is when she told me that she already lose her virginity so i was like WHAAAAAAAAATTTTT???!!!! all this time i thought i know her but i guess i was wrong,..i cried in front of her because she was different now i mean i know what kind of environment she has but i can't and i don't want to believe that she was adapting that environment,.PREMARITAL SEX..i told her that i can't gave any advise because i knew that she wont listen to me,i mean she has her own perception in life and maybe that was different from mine,.kase kung nalaman ko agad un cguri pipigilan ko xa kso sabe nya hindi ko xa mapipigilan eh..basta i promise to be here for her no matter what,..PERIOD.